Peace Pipe Please

I was warned by an Elder that all the build up of emotions from the past two years would soon start to disintegrate. One, the build up of emotions is not a good thing for a person such as myself - I feel everything. Two, I was warned. Warnings typically lead to a negative connotation, however this was a warning for positive change. Not sure what that meant at the time but I certainly know now. I understand that this year is unique with planetary alignments (once every 500 years) but more interestingly, is a year of change for all people personally, locally, AND globally.

I woke up this morning, not wanting to get out of bed, not wanting to think, not wanting to talk to anyone. I walked around the condo and realized I’d left the water running from last night, the patio door open, the Internet still connected, and other things just kind of left to fend for themselves. This is not me. I realized that I have not been me.

“If I’d known who I was, I would have been my self.”

I had broken peace in my heart. All the experience over the past couple years were on their way to heal but I did not listen to that warning…so what happened? I got excited. I jumped to conclusions, I became sure of myself and even more ridiculous is that I became sure of others. I mean that from an egocentric point of view. So, another lesson learned…sigh…time to revisit the way of the peaceful warrior.