Count Down

I suppose there is a time in all our lives when we start to understand the cycle in our life. Whether it is of love, work, hobbies; it seems that we are confined by psychological cycles. Naturally, we deny the idea of being bound to a simple cycle, however, I feel that once accepted, growth pursues.

My relationship cycle is of an absolute love, heartbreak, resistance to change, acceptance for dating, then...I let go. I desire a shared joy for life - with no expectations - and from multiple people. However, because I am constantly challenged, I give in and let go of all 'drama', detach from emotional stress, and look within to become a stronger person. Ideally, wisdom follows. Not always, but I'd like to think so.

So, here it is, the count down to 2007 and I'm dedicating this upcoming year to being alone. I am enjoying my 'cycle' and at the same time, learning from it so that I can continue on this wonderful journey of change and growth; expanding my horizons; looking beyond the norms of society; challenging conventional ways and pushing the boundaries of community and love.

Pushing Boundaries?
It's honest, it's loving, and the intention is to bring back the basics of a loving community. It really is simple. Loose the selfish needs and reach for the love in all people. I'm pretty sure I'll be challenged by a multitude of psychologists and the folks who strive on psychoanalyzing. But, hear me out. I don't support polygamy, I support community. Could it be possible to absolutely love and commit to a single person while at the same time be intimate with many others? If you're thinking intimate in a sexual content, then you've already misunderstood.

Intimacy can be shared through music, artistry, books, anything, even chocolate. My unconditional love for my partner is fed through the intimate relationships I have with my close community of friends and family...and nature, creator, spirits, guides, goddess.

This new year will be somewhat a personal experiment into an unknown. I had used the word commitment (for life) and since so many people tend to distant themselves to this single word, allow me to offer alternatives (for life). Loyal, loving, caring, gentle, unconditional, forgiving, supportive, #1 fan, connected, freedom, lessons, sharing, joy, empathy (for life). Perhaps it's not so scary after all!